Home Not Sweet Home

After years, where should I put my heart, where can I say this is "Home Sweet Home"?
And in the middle of undefined weather like this, i still don't know where to go, cause a place where i should go, isn't the one that i can call "Home Sweet Home".

Me, myself, don't know why i live on my own with all the surroundings. Only one or two can have some times with me and have a "life". It's confusing yet hurting, when i don't know where i stand or where i can stand.

Still my secure place isn't home but person.

And the lullaby playing in an office room, I'm on my own, with the wind from the air conditioner and one or two ghosts that passing by..

+Hanya Tinggal Kita Berdua+ - KOIL

Twilight Saga

Reading is one way of escape

And it helped me much. Knowing how people can suffer from undefined pain, which they will barter it with anything. Anything that easier to chew, anything that easier to feel.

And stay focus. You have to know what to do next. Any step. Any plan. Don't empty your head. Stay focus.

It will be over in a day, a week, a month, a year, a decade, or in a life time. But it will be over..

Unspoken

Actually i have lots of things to say, and it's not just the good ones.

How can i trust you, if i can't see you work hard in something we called "relationship"?

I still can't see it

There are many things we can do while waiting

That's what i believe

This Is The Day

This is the day that we've been waited for..

Butterflies in stomach

Pain chest

Worry

and fear

Then.. silent...

Not today, still need more time

Forgotten

The best thing of being forgotten is remembering how some persons used to remember you. And the way life shows you, that in somebody's mind you still have a place. And suddenly the surprise came up. And you'll know that somebody is keeping an eye on you..

Don't blame for the attention they gave, while you keep the distance or stay away.. Why don't you try to be the one who give it, instead of fertilize the anger?

Someone Like You

"Someone Like You" - Adele

I heard that you're settled down
That you found a girl and you're married now.
I heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.

Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
"I'll remember", you said,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Yeah.

You know how the time flies
Only yesterday it was the time of our lives
We were born and raised
In a summer haze
Bound by the surprise of our glory days

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over, yeah.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
"I'll remember", you said,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.

Nothing compares
No worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes
They are memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
"I'll remember", you said,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
"I'll remember", you said,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.

And it makes my posts "200".. Sing it out loud!!

Gravity

"Gravity" - Sara Bareilles

Something always brings me back to you.

It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone.

You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your rain.

[CHORUS:]
Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.

You loved me 'cause I'm fragile.
When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.

[CHORUS]

I live here on my knees as I try to make you see that you're everything I think I need here on the ground.
But you're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down
You're on to me, on to me, and all over...
Something always brings me back to you.

It never takes too long.

"My question is why?"